Week 16 Love

Explore the possibilities. . .

Let's talk about week 15, and the fact that there is, again, no blog post for that week. I'm not going to pretend I don't know why I didn't write a post. And I'm not going to make up some fake excuse for not writing it either. Here's the blunt truth about week 15. . .I moved out of the driver's seat and into the passenger seat of my own life. I don't think I made it to the back seat, and I most certainly didn't get anywhere near the trunk. But I definitely shifted into a passive passenger. If you aren't following the analogy, check out my first blog post here. . . Who do you love?

I feel that I am on the brink of another major life change. And there is part of me, a part of the new me, that is excited and ready for this change. But at the same time, the old part of me is scared shitless to even consider the idea of this change. 

For as long as I can remember, I have always been the kind of person who is deep rooted in comfort zones. Why do we develop comfort zones? And what is it about the unknown that makes it so scary? I have faced a few scary unknowns recently. Granted I didn't really choose to face them, more like I was forced to face them. . .or die in the trunk. But you know what? So far, I've come out better on the other side. One would think I would learn from that and use it as ammunition when facing the next unknown major life change. Instead, when week 15 rolled around I vacated the driver's seat, curled up in the passenger seat, took my eyes off the road, and shut down.

Thank goodness it didn't last too long. By the time week 16 rolled around, I had decided that shutting down wasn't the best option. Once I thought about it, I determined that comfort zones are much more about "familiarity" than they are about "comfort".  And I quickly realized that my current comfort zone, although very familiar, is anything but comfortable.

So I started exploring the possibilities of this new life change. Really exploring them. And I found that I became more excited about the possibilities and directions in which my life could go, and less scared of the fact that the possibilities and directions are uncertain.

How have you loved yourself this week?