Later. . .
This week's post is late. It's technically last weeks post, but I didn't get around to it. And honestly, I didn't even know what my love act for myself was going to be. It was Saturday and I try to do my post for the week sometime on the weekend. So I was feeling this pressure like I had to hurry up and come up with something and get the post written. I was also feeling all this pressure to get my house clean, start packing for my horse show trip this weekend, meet a friend at the barn to ride, do laundry, and about a hundred other things. Suddenly, all I really wanted to do was take a nap.
Am I the only one that ever happens to? I find that when faced with a multitude of things that seem overwhelimg, I follow one of two extreme paths. I either a) dig in, become extremely focused, and bang out the tasks like nobody's business or b) completely shut down and accomplish nothing. I really seem to have no middle ground here. And what's worse, I seem to have little control over which path I'm going to take when an overwhelming situation arrises. More often than not, the path chooses me. And this weekend, the latter path was the clear winner.
Is one path better than the other? Is path B a "bad path"? I don't think so. I think there are times when accomplishing nothing is exactly what a person needs to accomplish. So what if I didn't get my house clean or finish my laundry. So I didn't start packing for the trip yet. Big deal. So I didn't know what my love action for the week was and my blog post might be late. Oh well. I'm pretty sure I'm the only one reading this blog anyway. My friend wasn't bothered that I didn't get to the barn to ride at the same time she happened to be riding. We'll meet up again soon.
I sat there on my couch on Saturday afternoon and thought to myself "Are any of these things going to matter in a year? Heck, are any of them going to matter next week?" As soon as I realized the answer was no, I promptly laid down and took a two hour nap. And then spent the evening being lazy and clearing up some space on my very full DVR. And in doing so, I realized that I had just completed my love action for the week. I allowed myself to put off things that were making me feel overwhelmed and stressed out. Things that in the grand scheme of things, had no business making me feel stressed.
It may seem like I gave up productivity in exchange for accomplishing nothing, but in retrospect I think it was really something.
How have you loved yourself this week?
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